making good the fall

It's EQINOX and after a week of falling...not very easily, the gifts of my lessons have shown up.  i have at least one hairline break to my elbow ... i took myself into a walk-in clinic 4 days after the fall, prepared as well as i could with an attitude of openness, a good mask, and showing up 1st thing in the morning b4 too many people filled waiting rooms.  the wost exposures for a person with chemical sensitivities is the 'hand sanitizers' highly fragranced and placed everywhere.  Pete helped, stood in line until it was my turn, then signalled through the waiting room window as i waited outside.

The experience took 1.5 hrs. and was a series of hurdles with my name on them. 
1.  FEAR. i don't like going into clinics...yet this was a necessity and was doable.
2.  FINANCES. we will pay oui-of-pocket in crements we can afford.
3.  RADIATION.  i am highly sensitive to xray.  to ck 4 breaks i needed xrays.  late in the afternoon, i went for energy work to move radiation through (NAET and accupuncture) and aid the trauma of the break.

4.  ATTITUDE ADJUSTMENT.  i miss/mourn the loss of so many past successes.  futile really;  though this post is less pretty than some, it's an expression of aging truth that needs to be put down, valued for it's making good the fall.  Jots is stretched acoss my lap, slinged writing/writing hand immobilized i put this out to be part og the chronicle.  'OLE CYCLE of review starts tomorrow and EQUINO X...SPRING is now. 

There's a bonanza of gold happening astrologically  ... a blog-fest with articles to help us learn to appreciate gravity, among other thins.  The link that follows is wonderful insight.  The ruby of inspiration for me came with a long and healing phone chat with my 37 yr old son who is mirroring true 'gold.'  i'm at the end of this lap arounf the keyboard and i.m dizzy from searching for the right letters.

look to the night sky in the north heminsphere for a spectacular MOON AND PLEIDES partership.  HAPPY SPRING!  uNTIL after the 'ole nights (4 of them starting Sunday).

aloha, Mokihana  

http://www.mothersky.com/2005/01/saturn-without-suffering/