Today's ReminderSo many examples of distorted thinking. Okay, this is not about perfection and getting all of it down, it's just for now and what comes from my heart.
"When my thinking becomes distorted by trying to force solutions, I probably won't get the results I seek. As the saying goes, "When in doubt, don't."
Being affected by alcoholism has left me with second-hand toxic thinking. I was the older sister and the go-to girl by the time I was able to talk and walk. I started believing I could fix things because I was good at reading the environment: What's Daddy like when he opened the car door? Read his face and listen to his voice? With the read, we either did the duck and cover or mask up with the listening ears and absorb the sadness/madness. That was such a long, long time ago and even with the years of re-covery and unlearning, when I am under siege or weak from recovering from toxic drift today old survival skills like distorted thinking leap up.
Building the vardo has been Ke Akua's gift of waiting and perseverance wrapped in one small package. One day at a time we built it from scratch. Sometimes we had to take two (or three) steps back before we could make forward progress. Since its a vardo for two, we get to practice waiting for patience to come and it might take twice as long.
Care to share your experience, strength, and hope?